...and i have six hours worth of stuff to do. im very scared right now. i have a drs. appt. in three brief hours and he'll give me a rather large shot. i have a rather large fear of needles. but this in itself is not the scary part. i pride myself on never crying. ESPECIALLY about pain. so it is extremely grievous to my spirit to realize i have never received a shot without crying. im sure that dr. goldberg thinks i am a great big girl or something equally revolting. but on the other hand, ive been crying the past couple of days because it hurts so bad so i guess im a big girl anyway. also, the pain has made me so nauseous, all i can eat is crackers and cinnamon toast. although last night i did manage to keep down some gingerbread my brother made. i want some real food so i should probably go ahead and suck it up and go.

i cant even function properly. everything im supposed to do today i cant remember how to do it and im getting mad about everything everyone asks me to do. i cant continue on like this...somethings gotta change....

*sigh* i miss danielle. i wish i was with her right now. *sigh* id even put up with the chipotle everything to see her again.
i miss karris too. and she only lives twenty minutes away.
*sigh*
love all of you. dont think im depressed. im sure its mostly the pain talking. but i still miss danielle. even if i was healthy.

love love,
the next christopher reeve