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24 November 2003 @ 03:17 pm
i turn myself inside out in hope someone will see  
i wrote this song i thought was pretty cool and i was all happy and then i listened to this cd my sister burned for me. and just...wow! they are currently residing in the one and two position in the "why cant i write like that?" category. here are some snippets so that you can understand my frustration

i know we're dying and there's no sign of a parachute
in this chapel, little chapel of love
can't we get a little grace and some elegance
no, we scream in cathedrals
why can't it be beautiful
why does there gotta be a sacrifice

and the song i would have cut off my hair to have been able to write... (just trying to have a little perspective)

you used to captivate me with your resonating light
now im bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds wont seem to heal
this pain is just to real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
you still have all of me
i tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me, i've been alone all along

ive decided that if i stop listening to my cds and start listening to my records, everything in my life will get better...what do you think?

my mom and sister are coming over today to help me with my house as its fairly disgusting. i dont want anyone to come over or anything.

i also think i should start listening to some crap bands like blink-182 and sum 41 so that i will feel better about my songwriting abilities.

i have to go today to take care of a ticket i got and i dont get paid till friday, so i have no money to pay it with and im hoping that wont be a problem.

ive been in a real elvis costello mood lately. i even rented notting hill just to hear his song. i need to get chelsey to burn me a copy of that cd im thinking... and i need to get someone to buy me his new album. hes so cool.

well have to put on pants and do the dishes before i can leave so i'd better go now. i wish i had advil in my house as i awoke with a headache and i know from experience they only get worse. well maybe while im out...

peace love and understanding (good song)
kisses all around,
bb
 
 
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: elvis costello - she
 
 
 
ex_pretty_gi80 on November 26th, 2003 02:41 pm (UTC)
I would have given my makeup bag to write that Evanescence song! It's my fave song of the year....

If u have the chance, could u tell ur mom that Rina says "How YOU doin'"?

I think she would remember me, she hears about me from Chelsey all the time.