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21 November 2003 @ 02:56 pm
dont try to fix me, im not broken  
here are the highlights of my life since last post:

-i got the job at supertarget and i start today. its pretty fun at least when compared to my last piece of crap job and well its only till january by which time i should have another job.

-two problems. i dont think i am able to work full time anymore health wise, as i have recently gotten worse. so i dont know what im going to do. i would love to qualify for disability and work just two or three days a week. will they even let you do that? i have to figure something out....

-i need to start traveling again. i need to go to california and spend some time with my grandparents, visit places i have always wanted to see. go back to england, and the like. i need money to do that which i dont have, working part time wont help me to be able to accomplish it. so i need my health to get better. or something..

-my insomnia has returned. last night i couldnt sleep till almost 5:45 am. this is not helping me with my health problems.

-i want to make as much money as my brother does, but i dont think ill ever be able to do that. i know i need to go back to school and i love the idea of being a teacher, however, i have been thinking a lot about becoming a nurse. they are in great demand right now and i think id be good at it... but i just dont know...

-i think thats my main problem. i cant make myself get interested or excited about anything. i think that might be bad.

-it would probably be easier just to move back in with my parents but i just dont know. i like getting along with my family and if i were to move back home that wouldnt happen. my mom and i have talked about it.

-i guess my point is something is going to have to change and soon, im going to have to give it some serious thought.

-im actually in a pretty good mood, despite what it might seem like. i do need to finish my portfolio. i need to get my songs all together and see if andrew can write some music to go with my words, and i have to see pirates of the caribbean two more times to reach my goal... so yay!

k well i still have to finish getting ready for work and i dont want to be late on my first day.

love and kisses,
-me
 
 
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ex_pretty_gi80 on November 21st, 2003 02:20 pm (UTC)
Glad u got the job! Chelsey's told me of your job @ the restaurant and how you have a difficult time w/ ur health...I WOULD say that I'm sorry and sympathize but you probly don't want pity. You seem like a strong girl.

What kind of song do you write? And where in Cali would u be going? My family and I (and possibly Chuck) are going next month near Orange County.

Oh I've heard you claim Orlando as you're own...hmmm...we shall see ;)
queenie bbluebirdgirl on November 21st, 2003 03:05 pm (UTC)
thanks that means more than you know.

id be going to lake arrowhead/big bear area, that was so affected by the fires. (near san bernadino)

and hands off or you will lose some body parts!!! hes mine and i dont like sharing! ;-)

-bb
ex_pretty_gi80 on November 21st, 2003 03:12 pm (UTC)
*raises hands in surrender* okay okay I'll just snag Michael Vartan from Alias...geez ur so touchy about him! ;) lol

will that be a road trip or flight?
ex_savoytruf156 on November 21st, 2003 07:16 pm (UTC)
Hellooooooooooo ladies!
ROAD TRIP! ROAD TRIP! ROAD TRIP! I think we should all go on a road trip. Wait, after i think about it, being w/becca for long periods of time could be detrimental to my health. har har i kid, i kid! love you becca and you know it. "yeah, your probaby wight." ;)
ex_pretty_gi80 on November 21st, 2003 07:24 pm (UTC)
Re: Hellooooooooooo ladies!
"yeah...you're wight...what about wove? twue wove?" lol

We should drive to the Grand Canyon, don't you? *sigh* see all the stars from there.
queenie bbluebirdgirl on November 22nd, 2003 01:54 am (UTC)
Re: Hellooooooooooo ladies!
the only stars im interested in are the ones in hubbys eyes when he meets me.

(dont i sound like a fourteen year old fan girl??)

anyways, i dont know because i cant afford either right now, havent talked to my grandparents and things. but i promised my grandmother i would come out just me sometime and we would go to palm springs.

im not sure what wed do there but i know it would mean a lot to her so i need to do that soon. plus im worried about the fires and things.

jeez, this has turned into an email.

-bb
bunnylopez on December 1st, 2003 07:14 am (UTC)
supertarget
which supertarget?
queenie bbluebirdgirl on December 1st, 2003 12:05 pm (UTC)
Re: supertarget
the one on garland road at 190 across from the wal-mart
bunnylopez on December 2nd, 2003 01:24 pm (UTC)
Re: supertarget
cool! They hirin? if so how much do they pay and what are the discounts like?
queenie bbluebirdgirl on December 2nd, 2003 02:22 pm (UTC)
Re: supertarget
i think they might still be hiring for cashiers. i dont know what they make but prolly between six ans seven dollars and hour.

discounts are ten percent.
bunnylopez on December 4th, 2003 01:41 pm (UTC)
Re: supertarget
eh i make 7.50 right now and i work 4-5 hrs / dy